Making resolutions in February

It may be February 19, but it feels like January 1st because I've been looking at "My Goals and Resolutions 2009" (both figuratively and literally) asking God to write out His plans. Even before coming home from Mexico, the Lord said to me, Ok, new direction, new perspective, new idea of what your life looks like. He took His giant eraser and wiped the slate clean. It was actually a huge relief. He was impressing on my heart that He wanted to answer my prayers to change me, and was going to do something new in my life. And now the Lord's placed in me a zoomed-in desire for Him, a sharpened focus on being who He made me to be and a view of serving Him more in the way He has for me--not being a duplication of someone else's way. In order to communicate His plan to me, He's allowed my calendar to be almost completely empty of "commitments" right now and has given me time to self-examine, plan, pray and think. I'm grateful. Before we left Mexico, He began by reminding me of His commandment to "make disciples." He said to me, "You have already from Me enough to be able to give to others. Get going and do it wherever you are!" I'm sure it's true of 90% of American Christians. In terms of sharing all God's given me with others who God puts in my life, I need to think spiritually, not just materially. I realized I need to always be ready to share from God's Word and make plans to do so, but that He's already taught me so much I can share, so just teach, share, disciple already. In answer to "What would You have me to do here, Lord?" I believe one answer is host a Ladies Bible Study. The Mexican people do not have the plethora of spiritual resources that we are blessed with in the U.S. If I just shared with the women in Mexico the lessons God has taught me not only through His Word, but also tapes, books, and messages in the last year, I could be kept very busy for a long time. But God said, "Now go home and plan to share, teach, make disciples there, until I send you somewhere else again." Sometimes we think we have to study more, learn more first.
Before we went to Mexico, with the help of a friend, we were preparing framed Spanish Scripture pictures to take with us for gifts for the widows and others we would be visiting during the week. We also gave a framed 10 Commandments to both the church we helped and to the De Hoyoses. The theme of the 10 Commandments seemed to pop up everywhere as we prepared these pictures--I even saw a man's tie with the 10 Commandments on it!! No, I didn't buy it, but I was "tempted"!
So I've been thinking a lot about the 10 Commandments. Thou shalt have no other gods before Me: The first commandment. First place. That's the only position the Lord Jesus Christ will accept. That may conjure up a picture of an ogre standing over you with a club, but that couldn't be further from the truth, which is what He brought home to me yesterday. As I read Bible verses relating to the first commandment, "Thou shalt have no other gods before me," the picture was closer to a man wooing a woman. Words such as desirous, sweet, rejoicing the heart were used in the verses I read! "Set your affection on things above, not on things of the world." The Lord wants me heart and soul!! What a personal God!
I was also proofing the verses for our friend Amy for her girls' seminar, and one of the sweetest verses to me is Zephaniah 3:17, "The LORD thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing." What kind of voice do you think the Lord has? This has to be the most beautiful love song ever sung!!
Psa 63:5, "My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips: When I remember thee upon my bed, and meditate on thee in the night watches." Psa 94:19, "In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comforts delight my soul." These verses describe my response as being satisfied, full of praise, joy and delight!!
It's so easy to let other things become our "gods," I've realized. Anything that competes with Him for first place in my heart is a "competing affection," and can become an idol, a god. Reading verse after verse about how God feels about me, where my affections should lie, what I should be desiring, the blessing of making God the object of my affections was so meaningful to me, and made me feel all wrapped up in God's love. I am more and more excited to share this understanding of God's love with others. I hope to host in the near future a Bible Study for women and older girls on the 10 Commandments. The Lord is teaching me so much!!
On the "Day-at-a-glance"-view of my life, and as I continue to ask God what is on His plate for me, I aim each day to "Do the Next Thing" as Elisabeth Elliot says. We're talking as a family about ministry opportunities in the next months, but in the meantime, I'm trying to make strides towards greater order in many areas of my life. God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. That last is the one I am claiming and applying to my daily schedule. Another reason it seems like Jan. 1--I'm resolving to do what He tells me to as I pray over goals, make schedules, bring discipline and order to bear in my daily life in areas where there has been increasing lack of discipline and disturbing DISorder--it is necessary work, (sigh) but I have to remember that it's also spiritual work (when I'm tempted to ask myself Why do I have to do this?) that hopefully will bring eternal rewards.